"Although it seems so far away, freedom is worth the fight"

Before one of her recent races, Anna Frost wrote on her running shoes : ‘ Change your thoughts and you change the world’ which i find not only super cool but also something i try to remember every day , even though i have to remind myself from time to time. In other words, i’m trying to remind myself that being depressed about my situation won’t make my leg better so the only thing to do is to (try) be positive !

And there are so many things to be thankful for. First, i realized that my legs were actually in a desperate need of rest that i haven't given them since i got injured….for the past year i’ve been either running in pain or not at all…now it’s time to let my legs rest for a while since there’s no point to train while my hamstring is not healed. Second, i realized that as much as i love running i love as well training indoors…so of course i’d rather run on mountains rather than running hills on elliptical, but i love so much the group exercises and the feeling i have after a good and hard training session that i’m so grateful i can exercise indoors! ( yesterday, my reovery time based on Garmin was 56 hours!!! and that's only after 3 hours of bodypump+spin intervals +hills on elliptical !! that's insane because i used to do the same but only 2 hours of running instrad elliptical....)

Besides, as soon as it gets a bit warmer , i will start cycling again so at least i can have a long cycling hours outdoors.

Moreover, from week to week i feel less pain while exercising so i know i’m on the way to recovery ( i hope my mind is not playing trick on me ...:)

The frustrating thing is that sometimes it’s like i have no pain at all and i feel as if i can run again…but then when i try to run….well..it’s pretty obvious i still can’t :(

Then, i have to remind myself that being healthy again should be my priority now, not racing….so no matter how long it takes i must keep the faith i can run again. After reading several blog posts recently i realized that throughout the past year, running has taken over my life…which is a good but also a bad thing…especially when you can’t run. Even though i’m a runner with all my heart and soul (even when i can’t run)…there are so many other things in life that i’ve put a side : , taking care of friendships, watching movies, tv-series, books, cooking. Besides, i’m not only a running geek…i also love science , especially math :)

That being acknowledged, i realized that i shouldn't care so much about my fitness…it’s gone already anyways…once i heal, i’’ll be lucky if i can run as i used to two years ago when i just started to race. I just want to keep exercising because it makes me feel good, and whenever i start running again, let it be next week or next year….i just have to believe it’s gonna happen one day. My next challange : how do i survive Easter holiday without running :) ??

p.s.

Reading ‘feet in the clouds’ made me realize i’m not as crazy as i thought …here are few quotes that convinced me :

“Pig headed refusal to face the medical facts is a central tenet of fell-running dogma “.

When the writer tries to answer what makes a good fell-runner, his answer is : 4 things. A light frame , a good footedness, good heart and lungs And a disregard for pain and danger that verges on lunacy….